Sunday 17th December 2017

Today is my second to last night here. I don’t know how to feel. I guess one emotion I’m feeling right now that I can name is sadness. Not because of the fact that it’s soon time to leave, but because over the past week, whatever connection me and Thida had has deteriorated. Whenever I would talk to her, she would simply ignore me, or just give me one worded answers if I was lucky. I don’t even know why, I don’t know what I did, if anything, to upset her. It just happened so sudden, to the point where I just got tired of forever making an effort to talk to her. We now just spend our time at home apart, and in silence. Sighs. I feel sad because I just wish I didn’t feel like such a lonewolf here. Rachel has Pamella. Grace, Tom and Christie have each other. Serena has Lucky. And I have no-one. I feel like my being here doesn’t make a difference to anyone. Being so lonely whilst consistently being in the presence of others, sucks. I think I’m going to try and sleep this mood away…